This is a brief update to my previous blog BEING CAROLE LOMBARD: MY PAST-LIFE IN HOLLYWOOD (read the blog here for the backstory).
When Donna Ciaciarella regressed me to my past life as an actress in Hollywood, she thoroughly described a costume I wore in a film I was shooting "that had to do with a period piece".
She described the costume as being a "southern belle dress" (listen to
the recording at the bottom of the page from a little before 2:00).
consequently tried to find evidence of Lombard wearing this type of a
costume, but I came up dry. I researched most of her movies - read what
they were about - but none of them was something I would really
consider a period piece, especially one that took place in the South.
it turns out, however, I wasn't looking carefully enough. About a week
ago, I started to watch one of the most important films Lombard ever
made. It was the film that essentially made her a star. The movie was
called Twentieth Century.
I was only about fifteen minutes into the 1934 film when I saw Lombard wearing a dress that
gave me intense chills. The dress was almost exactly what Donna
Ciaciarella described to me in her vision (see the movie poster above
and the photo to the right). Now, Twentieth Century
itself was not a period piece, but Lombard's character (Lily Garland)
wore the dress for a play she was acting in. And the play WAS a period
piece that took place in the Old South. Could Donna have been describing
this play within the play? After all, Donna never said the film I was
working on was a period piece; she said it "had to do with a period
Of course, it's possible that there was another actress
from the early twentieth century that wore a similar dress and may have
starred in a period piece that took place in the South; but Donna's
vision was almost exactly the same as what was going on in Twentieth Century. And when you factor in all the other evidence (that you can read about in my previous blog), I can now more confidently say that I had a past life as Carole Lombard in Hollywood.
does this mean I am the reincarnation of Carole Lombard? No, I don't
really feel comfortable saying that, seeing that I also had a parallel
existence as a man in Poland around the same time period (read about the
Poland life HERE).
All I know is that my spirit, soul, consciousness, higher self -
whatever you want to call it - previously incarnated itself as a woman
named Carole Lombard. That's all I can say and I'm basically 99.9% sure
now that this is true.
The entire mystery, however, is still not completely solved. As I described in my previous blog,
Donna uncovered that I was raped in Hollywood by a man I was "madly in
love with". Up until now, I assumed that I was raped during the time
that I was filming the "period piece" and this is why Donna mentioned
the movie in her vision. But my gut feeling
seems to be telling me something different; right now, I don't believe I
was raped during the time I was shooting Twentieth Century.
And I don't think I was raped by anybody I was working with on the
film. Lombard's costar (and legendary Hollywood bad-boy) John Barrymore
briefly popped up as a suspect, but my intuition tells me he was a good
guy and didn't do it.
To be honest, I think Donna described my part in Twentieth Century to me for reasons unrelated to the rape. In his book Regression: Past-Life Therapy for Here and Now Freedom, Dr. Samuel Sagan reminds people that past-life regression doesn't only uncover negative traumas, but sometimes positive trauma as well. Twentieth Century,
after all, was known to be Carole Lombard's career-altering movie. It
was the film that officially made her a big-time Hollywood movie star.
Maybe the entire Twentieth Century experience was so positive that it left a good scar on my soul and this is what Donna was picking up on.
Anyway, the fact of the matter is that I don't think anybody associated with Twentieth Century raped me. But I do have a prime suspect in my head right now. I was reading some of Larry Swindell's biography on Lombard (Screwball: The Life of Carole Lombard)
and I stumbled upon a few paragraphs describing a "fling" Lombard had
with Howard Hughes when she was about twenty years old. Hughes was
supposedly Carole's first crush. She was very much in love with him, but
Hughes kept the whole affair very hush-hush and secretive, partly
because he was also dating actress Billie Dove on the side. Lombard and
Hughes saw each other for a while, but then Hughes called the whole
thing off when he apparently lost interest in her. Carole didn't want to
let him go. She told all her friends that she would get him back
eventually. But she never did.
At the time of the affair,
Swindell says that Lombard wasn't acting quite like herself while at
work. She was actually fired from a Cecil B. DeMille movie she was
working on (Dynamite)
because she wasn't remembering any of her lines. According to Swindell,
there was a "detectable vagueness about her that seemed contrary to
the forthright, eagerly working Carole Lombard [colleagues] would later
know and direct. It was the only case of her having been remiss in
application." Was there something bothering Carole that made her 'vague'
and 'remiss'? Was she just hurt when Hughes dumped her? Or was there
something else bothering her???
What I'm getting at is that the
"affair" between Lombard and Hughes sounded very similar to the
situation Donna described to me in her vision. Donna said I was madly in
love with whoever raped me. It was a teenage-like crush that I blew out
of proportion. I had fantasies of marrying the man and living a
fairy-tale-like life happily ever after. But the man had no romantic
interest in me whatsoever. Donna described him as a "womanizer", which
is exactly what Howard Hughes was known to be.
On top of all
these similarities, I couldn't help but remember my eerie experience at a
metaphysical bookstore called "The Enchanted Fox", when a medium
working there (named Rose) said she saw an image of Howard Hughes when
she looked at me. We were both confused as to why she was seeing Hughes,
but could it have been because he raped me in my past life? This is all
too possible, but I don't have any evidence to support anything. I am
currently in the process of trying to get a medium to corroborate my
suspicions, but I haven't had much luck yet. I also asked my friend Jan
to dowse for me, but she wasn't able to get any answers for some reason.
Maybe I'm not meant to get any answers. Maybe I'm just completely out
of my mind. It's very possible, I suppose.
But, yes, right now
Howard Hughes is the number-one suspect. I feel in my bones that it was
him, but I can't go pointing fingers unless I have some sort of
confirmation from a source outside of myself (which, I suppose, has to
come in the form of a medium). Of course, Hughes is long dead (he died
in 1976), so it's not like I would be able to press any charges or
anything. But it would still be nice to attain some closure in regards
to the situation.
I will, of course, keep you updated if there
are any more developments in this mystery. If you have any information
that can help me out (either from the real or spirit world) please let
me know. I'll take anything I can get. Thank you.
is the actual recording of my regression session with Donna
Ciaciarella. You can listen to the other recordings at my previous
Carole Lombard blog (click HERE) or at my Youtube page (click HERE).
My Past-Life in Hollywood (Update #2)
This is a third update to my previous blog BEING CAROLE LOMBARD: MY PAST-LIFE IN HOLLYWOOD (click HERE to view). In my last update (click HERE
to read), I noted some progress I made in terms of finding out who
raped me in my past life as actress Carole Lombard. Unfortunately, I
have no new developments about the rape at this time. But I do have some
This past Friday, I was driving down a street in
Foxboro, MA., and I happened to pass a sign that said "Tarot Readings". I
don't know what it was about that sign but I felt it was calling to me
for some reason. I felt almost as though it was sucking me in, like it
was a magnetic beam or gravitational field or something like that. I
thought - hmmmm - maybe I should stop and get a reading. But to tell you
the truth I was kind of tired of psychics and mediums and all that
jazz. Plus, I didn't want to give out any more of my money to anyone if I
didn't have to.
I drove about ten minutes beyond the Tarot
place, but the "magnetic pull" became even more intense. I really felt
that I needed to go back and get a reading. I didn't know why, but I
felt as though I was meant to drive past that place. I don't mean to
sound all melodramatic or anything, but it really felt like a
Anyway, the pull became so intense at one
point that I said, "fuck it", turned around and headed back towards the
place where I saw the sign. As it turned out, the sign was actually
located at the end of a normal-looking driveway. I pulled my car into
the driveway and saw a place that basically looked no different than a
house, only there was a neon sign on the outside that said "Ten-Dollar
Palm Readings". The thought of getting my palm read sounded interesting
to me. I never had something like that done before. Plus, ten dollars
sounded like a pretty good deal. I decided I would go for it.
parked my car, walked into the house and was greeted by an (Eastern)
Indian-looking woman named Jesse. She was supposedly a
seventh-generation psychic, which sounded like she knew what she was
doing, but I would have to wait and see if she was any good.
"What can I do for you?" she asked.
"Um...I guess I just want my palm read."
"OK, come with me."
led me through a pair of open French doors and we sat in a comfy parlor
with some couches and a glass case filled with crystals, figurines and
"Take a seat. Are you right handed or left-handed?"
took my right hand, had me say my name out loud and then had me voice
one wish I hoped would come true. So I basically wished my writing
endeavors would be successful or something like that, and - only within a
couple seconds - Jesse started relaying information to me that (to my
surprise) was very accurate. I mean, I always thought palm readings were
things friends did to each other at slumber parties; I never thought it
was actually a real, legitimate art.
Jesse drew my attention to
various lines engraved into my palm that I'd never noticed before. One
long, curved line supposedly meant I would live a long life, but at some
point I would experience lower body pains (she didn't really elaborate
on the nature of those pains). Then Jesse started talking about my
career and how my name was going to grow and money would start rolling
in, but then people would try to bring me down. She said that I needed
to be in Los Angeles because I needed to "go after my dream". The only
thing keeping me in the East was family and friends. She also said that
California was where my heart was, anyway. "You're an ocean boy".
eventually flipped my hand over and immediately said something that
scared the absolute shit out of me. Honestly, I had never been so
freaking scared in my entire life.
"Who's pregnant?" she asked.
"What? Um, nobody, I don't think."
"You have a daughter and somebody's not telling you."
"What??? Uh...no I don't."
"Yeah you do, honey."
literally started shaking in my chair. I didn't know what the hell this
lady was talking about. My fear was that I had gotten somebody pregnant
somewhere down the line or perhaps even very recently and I just didn't
know about it. But I was pretty sure this wasn't the case. Everybody I
had ever had....um...relations...with was still somebody who was in my
life in one way or another, even the girls I'd had casual hook-ups with
or one-night stands with. And I was pretty sure none of them ever had my
child, or was pregnant with my child.
But then a question
suddenly came to me, almost within a couple seconds after my initial
panic. I don't know why it came into my head so fast or where the
question even came from, but all I know is that it was there:
"Could the daughter have been from a past life?"
Jesse nodded her head. "Yeah, possibly." And I was a little relieved, but only a little.
explained to Jesse that I had been "doing a lot of past-life stuff
lately" and that I had discovered I was (supposedly) a famous actress in
"As to whether it's true...I have no idea."
Jesse looked me square in the eye and gave me a little smirk.
"It's true, honey."
right, so there it was: pretty straight-forward confirmation of my
Hollywood life from yet another medium, one who was completely unrelated
to any other medium I had consulted with.
"OK, then. I guess it's true."
then explained to Jesse that there was always a feeling in the way back
of my mind that I had a daughter during the Hollywood life, but kept
the daughter a secret for whatever reason. My 'feeling' mainly arose
after I had read a book about Lombard entitled [title omitted],
written by a woman named [name omitted] in 2008. The book is about how
Carole Lombard secretly had a daughter when she was a teenager but gave
it up to her aunt and uncle to raise before anybody other than a few
close family members found out. According to [the author], the book is a
"story of possibility" filled with content that is supposedly 95%
non-fiction and 5% fiction/artistic liberty.
After I read the
book, I was very intrigued by the story. I managed to get in touch with
[the author] via email and she told me that - as far as I should be
concerned - Carole didn't have any child; the plot-line of the
illegitimate daughter was a figurative device she used to tell a
compelling story. But [the author] also told me something really
interesting that I can't repeat here because she wanted it off the
record. Let's just say she had access to a 'source' that nobody else has
ever had access to when it came to researching Carole's life. And this
'source' was an enormous influence in shaping her work of "fiction". In
other words, there is no way to be certain that Carole Lombard ever had a
child, but the "story of possibility" is certainly...well...possible.
all of the above into consideration, you can probably see why Jesse's
vision of a "secret daughter" lead me to seriously consider the
possibility that Carole Lombard did, indeed, have an illegitimate child.
I tried to get Jesse to provide more information about the daughter,
but all she could say was that she saw the daughter "grown up" and she
had my eyes. This was good news to me, because I was pretty sure that -
if I did have a daughter in my current life - she wouldn't be very old
yet. If anything, somebody may have been pregnant with my daughter
(though I later checked with all recent partners and nobody was pregnant
as far as they knew).
Anyway, Jesse eventually placed the whole
secret-daughter-deal on the back burner and she started discussing my
Hollywood life a little more. She said there was a lot of glamour and a
lot of success and there were a lot of positive people around me much of
"In fact, you weren't supposed to live your current
life," she told me. "You were supposed to accomplish what you are doing
now in the former life. But something went wrong. It was a choice you
made...I don't know...things didn't unravel the way they were meant to
Needless to say, I was a little taken aback by what she
was saying. "Come again? I wasn't supposed to live this life? That's a
little weird to hear." But after a moment, I think I kind of understood
what she was saying.
possibility is that I died too early in the Lombard life (she died at
age 33 in a plane crash). Maybe Jesse meant the crash wasn't supposed to
happen. I heard that Carole's mother (who also died in the crash)
warned Carole that she didn't have a good feeling about the flight and
they should take a train instead. Maybe I made the wrong choice by
boarding the plane despite my mother's warning. But, then again, how
could you really say my death from a plane crash "wasn't meant to
happen"? Just because I made a poor choice by boarding a doomed airplane
I completely messed up my soul's path forever? I don't really know if
that's something that can possibly happen. I mean, talk about the
maybe Jesse was referring to my Poland life, which coincided with the
Hollywood life, a phenomenon known as a "parallel existence" (read about
this life HERE).
In the Polish life, I was faced with a situation where I was
essentially tricked - and then forced - into helping the Nazis massacre
hundreds of Polish intellectuals. At a certain point during this
experience, I was faced with a very tough decision: refuse to partake in
the evil and die, or go along with it and live. Ultimately, I chose to
go along with it (in fear of dying and being unable to support my nine
children), but maybe I was "supposed" to die. Yes, maybe the Polish
existence was supposed to end and the Lombard existence was supposed to
go forward. But - for whatever reason - the Lombard existence had to be
cut short because the Polish existence didn't unravel the way it was
supposed to unravel. Maybe Lombard was destined to take her life in a
completely different direction, but couldn't do it because of how things
panned out in Poland.
I mean, one really has to wonder how two
lives influence each other in the case of a parallel existence. Maybe
what happens in one life simultaneously influences what happens in the
other life. Maybe the Lombard life needed the Polish existence to end at
a certain point so it could have more energy or rise to a higher
spiritual level and do bigger and better things; but because that didn't
happen it was better for Lombard's life to end abruptly and ultimately
start up all over again in this current incarnation as Matt Burns (i.e.
me). Maybe I am now where Lombard was supposed to be around 1942 when
she died. Maybe she was supposed to be where I am now but couldn't be
because of how the Polish existence panned out. Yes, I know this is
probably confusing as hell for you right now. All I'm trying to do is
raise some questions and explore some possibilities. I don't know if
there is any truth to these theories.
The fact of the matter is
that - according to the psychic Jesse - things didn't go according to
plan in the past and I wasn't 'supposed' to live this current life as
Matt Burns, but I AM living this life now and that's all I should really
be concerned about. Jesse did add, however, that there was a "dark
shadow" in my aura because of what went wrong in the past, and it was in
my highest and best interest to get a spiritual cleansing before I
moved forward with my life. She said this "dark shadow" had the
potential of getting in the way of me connecting with positive people in
the future. Positive people, she explained, can (subconsciously) sniff
out people with negative energy in their auras and they'll keep their
distance from them. In other words, the negative energy stuck in my aura
could be very detrimental to me forming important relationships in both
my professional and romantic life. If this sounds at all familiar, you
may have read all about it in the popular book The Secret,
which is all about the "law of attraction" (i.e. positive energy
attracts positive energy and negative energy attracts negative energy).
said she had the ability to do a spiritual cleansing for me, but I told
her I would sleep on it and get in touch with her later if I thought it
was something I wanted to have her do. I actually already knew how to
do some form of a cleansing and I wanted to avoid paying money for
something I could conduct on my own. In fact, anybody out there has the
ability to cleanse themselves if they want to - it's a good way to rid
your aura of any negative energy, not just stuff that may have come from
a past life. Basically, what you do is stand in front of your bathroom
faucet, turn the faucet on with your left hand, let the water run and
keep your hand gripped on the handle. Then, you hold a pendulum in your
right hand and say the following words:
"I now ask that my high
self and my helpers in the light please identify, disorganize and remove
all energies within my aura that are not in my highest and best
interest to have at this time."
In my case, I wanted to be a little more specific, so I added the following:
"Specifically remove all negative energies I have carried over from my past life in Hollywood and Poland."
all goes right, the pendulum should start swinging clockwise and you
basically just stand at the sink while you get cleared of all the
negative energy. It may take several minutes - depending on how much
energy is clearing - but you'll know that the process has completed when
the pendulum stops swinging and comes to a complete stop. The theory
behind this entire process is that all the negative energy from your
energy field (i.e. aura) gets washed out of your field and down the
drain, all the way into the bowels of the earth where it will no longer
affect you. I know it all sounds wacky, but I personally find that I
feel lighter and more positive after I do one of these cleanses. It's
actually best to do it every couple of days so that any negative energy
we pick up from the outside world doesn't accumulate and weigh us down.
But back to Jesse.
left my "palm reading" on Friday feeling extremely overwhelmed. For
one, I still wasn't sure about the mysterious daughter situation and I
was still kind of freaking out that somebody was pregnant in my current
life. Also, I was concerned about the 'dark shadow' that was in my
aura...and whether I would ever get rid of it! And on top of everything
else, I felt anxious about how Jesse said I needed to be in LA. Should I
be there now? When should I go??? How am I going to make that work?
Obviously I shouldn't just go to LA because Jesse said I needed to be
there, but, hell, I KNOW I need to be there; I wasn't hearing anything I
didn't know already.
As far as the daughter situation goes,
right now I'm wondering why I even needed to know I had a secret,
illegitimate daughter in the first place. I mean, I guess it's important
to know, but it's not like I can try to find her and reunite with
her...at least I don't think I can. First of all, it's very likely that
the daughter is deceased already, though I suppose it's very possibly
there is a granddaughter alive and possibly great-grandchildren. But I
wouldn't even know where to start looking for them, and I think they
would find me too weird anyway. I mean, what would I say to them? "Um,
yes, my name is Matt Burns. I'm a 29-year-old man now, but I have reason
to believe I am your grandmother from a past life." Yeah, that would
really go over well.
I think the fact of the matter is that the
past is the past and I can't really do much about it now. As the saying
goes, you shouldn't look back unless you want to go that way. Hopefully a
piece of my spirit is still with my daughter/grandchildren - watching
over them - but that's as good as things can be right now. Perhaps, in
the future, mankind will evolve to a point where we'll be able to
reunite with our children from a past life without anybody finding it
weird. But that time is not now. I can't really do much about the
situation. At least I don't think I can.
Of course, I'll let you
know if anything changes and whether there are any more developments in
this story. Who knows what else could pop up from the Lombard life?
Hopefully it's not any more bad stuff; I'm not sure I would be able to
handle much more of that. I mean, to be honest with you, the whole
illegitimate daughter thing gave me a feeling of sadness. I don't want
to experience any more of those emotions if I don't have to. Then again,
if experiencing these feelings is the only way to clear the darkness
from my aura, then I guess I say bring it on.